Waiting to Exhale

That one phone call that you had lost hope would ever come and then it does and that hope is restored and fulfilling it doesnt come easy so you're thinking when this is mine i will have such a story to tell my grandchildren.
With that one phone call you plan your entire life, you see how your future begins and unfolds. You have fears yes and insecurities and uncertainties but you shake it all off because this is your moment. You have waited this long so the stars must finally be aligned yes?
So when it doesn't happen, when it turns out to be just another phone call, what gives? How do you take the next step when the next one was supposed to lead to your future and now its leading to the same place you have been for the longest time now?
Emotions are fleeting, lately so is hope. There's a lesson they say, a right of passage, a story that will make them stop to listen in awe.
And then you have to talk about it. And with every phrase it feels a piece of you is given away. It calls for strength but instead it weakens. Smile in the face of adversity they say, dance in the rain they say,...:)